The Washington PostDemocracy Dies in Darkness

I used to hide my dad’s addiction. Now I can talk about it, but I’m still learning how to cope.

Recently, I realized I needed to let go of the weight of this secret

Perspective by
Lily contributor
April 14, 2019 at 8:48 a.m. EDT

For more than half my life, I have been wrapped up in my father’s struggle with alcoholism, which began when I was very young and continues to this day.

For years, my survival mechanism was to disassociate from my life in order to maintain a level head through very difficult stretches with my dad. I felt it necessary to hide this part of my life from others; very recently, I realized I needed to let go of the weight of this secret. I want to show the chaos that ripples through the lives of addicts and those closest to them, specifically their children. There’s a strange role reversal of parent and child; the child of an addict can feel a personal responsibility for their parent’s disease.

This comic only begins to scratch the surface of my experience as a child of a man with a very complex and life-controlling disease.